I truly find it hard to comprehend the multitude of experiences that have happened to me since Ben and I got married. How AMAZING! Although, I feel like I took a pill that made everything in the past 2 1/2 years seem like a dream and my reality is where I was the whole entire time.
It is nearing the end of March 2009. Beginning in January, Ben and I had camped and surfed the California coast, woke up to beautiful sun rises and sounds of sea lions, and frolicked amongst amazing natural rock formations in Colorado. We laughed, I cried, we drank, we dreamt and in all of these past 3 months I have felt more emotion, and I am sorry to say occasional stress, than I have ever experienced. I find that I had bottled up the sentimental feeling of picking up and moving from the home we made in California. I didn't want to let myself miss it. I now understand, that yes it was a wonderful decision to pick up our lives and move to an un-known place on the west coast. I enjoyed every minute of it. Not to mention, the rugged landscapes and enormous trees in our community made living there seem like I was in a fairy tale. I guess I didn't think that the same feeling of the un-known would come over me all over again when we moved next.
Here I sit in my brand new kitchen. I can see the ocean as I look out of my front porch and hear awesome song birds in the morning. This is a feeling that can't escape you. I see now that no matter where I go and how long it takes me to get there, I will always look fondly back to my many homes and love them. Day by day I am enjoying our new home even more. When the sun shines, I run on the beach and when I need to go pick up my mail, I just hop on my beach cruiser bike and ride a couple blocks to my P.O. Box. Ben and I feel very different about this move. We are more serious about making the life for ourselves that we dream about. We feel like it can really happen here! What gives me peace is that I know I will always have a home in Humboldt County CA. I look forward to visiting. Here I am still getting used to the southern accents and no mountain backdrops but it is feeling more like home. Ben recently has ben hired on with an EcoWater company which is a great step in the right direction. I am working on my massage therapy credentialling because it takes up to 60 business days to pass through NC's requirements. In the mean time I picked up a few hours at a local island grill where I have met great people who enjoy a good beer and the beach life.
It takes gumption, patience, understanding, and faith to bring you to a point of comfort and happiness. My grandpa once said that "In life there are hills and valleys, let us just hope that there are more hills... than valleys".
The valleys in my life have taught me how to appreciate the hills. The climb has not been easy and I can wine and moan through some of it. But I know that all of these experiences have shaped me and will continue to shape me into the young women that God has intended on me being.
The Prayer of Jabez
And Jabez called on the God of Israel saying, "Oh that You would bless me indeed, and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain." So God granted him what he requested.
Miraculous blessings await everyone.
JUMP!!
Trinity River, Willow Creek CA
